Sometimes things just don't go to plan. Nobody's plan at all....
A lovely older couple were going to be celebrating their Ruby Wedding Anniversary this weekend. We were unable to go up for the whole weekend but arranged to travel up for one day of the festivities. And we did.
One of the couple has terminal cancer and unfortunately a few hours in, he took ill and went to hospital and has been kept there so far. I kind of had in my mind that this would be the last time I would see him and I was determined to go anyway.
So we went and left part part way through to visit him in the hospital. He was only supposed to have guests two at a time but we were lucky and they let us use a sitting room and he came out to us. Nobody chased us away at the end of visiting time either... We spent an enjoyable time with him telling us many a story. It was a lovely time... He rose to the occasion and I think the visit did his spirits good, particularly as he was missing his party...
But as he took my arm as we walked to the sitting room I could feel that it was not just a guesture of friendliness, he needed my help. And hidden by his pyjamas, his arms have gotten so very thin. And if you looked past the animation and personality and spirit, you could see his ill health. F assures me with the practiced eye of one who sees very poorly people every day that he looks like he has a good while yet, but it was still bittersweet...
And i felt for his wife - running the party and entertaining the guests by herself. It must have been so very hard, and then at the end, when everyone had left, going home. But I also think there was some good things for her too. I think she realised the degree of support she would have from everyone. She looked so strong.
I would like to think I could have done something else for them, that this path I am on gives me some ability to do something good just by having been there... If that is so then I shall never know, but in truth, I lack training and understanding to do very much more than have raised his spirits with an unexpected visit.
Those wheels turn how they will and I turn with them.
Monday, 28 May 2012
Saturday, 26 May 2012
Tooth of the Lion
Sometimes things just won't go away. They just stick around, even though you don't know what to do with them.
Dandelion is not going away.
It started with me noticing them a lot as they came in to flower. Then on holiday, the Dandelions over there were already gone to seed and they had absolutely huge seedheads, far bigger than ours here.
When I returned here I talked of the animals we saw while away and Mel commented about her own encounter with a Rabbit...
'on Thursday morning i stood for ages watching a rabbit eating dandelions (it was like someone slurping spaghetti!)...it was quite daylight and she would have been easily spotted....but she sat and tucked in nonetheless...'
And then there was a comment that randomly landed in my inbox. A recent comment on an old blog post of Lisa's here.... This post is the story of a girl coming to terms with her heritage via Dandelions and the comment referred to being drawn to Dandelions too...
And then they appear in the books I am reading. I recently read the Hunger Games series by Suzanne Collins. Two of the main characters first met as children and there was a Dandelion involved as a sign. The third and final book ends with Dandelions too.....
'What I need is the dandelion in the spring. The bright yellow that means rebirth instead of destruction. The promise that life can go on, no matter how bad our losses. That it can be good again.'
They are there on a walk with F and S and we end up blowing the seeds off them at each other. And I remember how as a child on a walk with relatives one of them told me that dandelion seeds were fairies and if you caught one on the air you could whisper your wishes to it before letting it go. he spent most of the rest of the walk trying to catch seeds for me. I make wishes as F and S chase after each other.
A seed blows into my car one day as I have lunch.
I look at books and not one but two have dandelions on the front with the seeds blowing away.
I have come across various meanings... courage and tenacity, faith and loyalty, wishes do come true. I also found a reference to using a sachet of dandelion roots flowers and leaves for psychic dreaming... oooh....
It is certainly everywhere I go at the moment....
Dandelion is not going away.
It started with me noticing them a lot as they came in to flower. Then on holiday, the Dandelions over there were already gone to seed and they had absolutely huge seedheads, far bigger than ours here.
When I returned here I talked of the animals we saw while away and Mel commented about her own encounter with a Rabbit...
'on Thursday morning i stood for ages watching a rabbit eating dandelions (it was like someone slurping spaghetti!)...it was quite daylight and she would have been easily spotted....but she sat and tucked in nonetheless...'
And then there was a comment that randomly landed in my inbox. A recent comment on an old blog post of Lisa's here.... This post is the story of a girl coming to terms with her heritage via Dandelions and the comment referred to being drawn to Dandelions too...
And then they appear in the books I am reading. I recently read the Hunger Games series by Suzanne Collins. Two of the main characters first met as children and there was a Dandelion involved as a sign. The third and final book ends with Dandelions too.....
'What I need is the dandelion in the spring. The bright yellow that means rebirth instead of destruction. The promise that life can go on, no matter how bad our losses. That it can be good again.'
They are there on a walk with F and S and we end up blowing the seeds off them at each other. And I remember how as a child on a walk with relatives one of them told me that dandelion seeds were fairies and if you caught one on the air you could whisper your wishes to it before letting it go. he spent most of the rest of the walk trying to catch seeds for me. I make wishes as F and S chase after each other.
A seed blows into my car one day as I have lunch.
I look at books and not one but two have dandelions on the front with the seeds blowing away.
I have come across various meanings... courage and tenacity, faith and loyalty, wishes do come true. I also found a reference to using a sachet of dandelion roots flowers and leaves for psychic dreaming... oooh....
It is certainly everywhere I go at the moment....
Spider Weaving Web
This has been a heavy moon for me. I often find that the feel of the moon changes when the wind changes and often, one half is harder than the other. I definately found the first half harder. The Ex has chilled out a little, S seems happier and has a girlfriend, M-i-L is a bit easier as she is getting a little more of what she wants. but that realisation that my Wheel is bound to theirs was a hard one. Karma and past lives and unsorted crap that rumbles on and on..... and on some more....
It makes me wonder if this will rumble through in to another life or more. None of it feels resolved and to be honest I can't see it all being resolved in this life. Maybe even some parts of it have gotten worse? Who knows... And I and a few others are bound into this situation as bit part actors, not fully a part of whatever is still wrong at the root but there anyway through bonds of love and family. And I am the least involved of all of us. I was not born into either of the two families, I was drawn here in the hunt for my soulmate and unfortunately this is what he comes with.
Not that I don't think I was there in that long ago life, i am sure I was. The feelings and relationships between myself and the other players are too definate to not speak of past issues. Maybe we and the other bit part actors are just here in love to support those we love in this life and try and help them untie those knots a little more.
S will get older, he will sort himself out, or not, but he will move further and further into his own life, taking control as he goes. As this happens, the need to talk to the other side of his family will grow less and less and her ability to affect my life will just get smaller and smaller and smaller.
M-i-L is another story though but she is over 70 now. i think as people get older they retreat further into the core of themselves and show more of what is at the heart. A person maybe truly kind and content and this will shine through more and more.... Unhappiness, discontent and fear... Anything unresolved becomes bigger too. I can already see how I might go - more forgetful and as I am tired more and more of the time, would be mroe and more grumpy, more of the time...
but M-i-L is different to me. I can't imagine she will ever be able to let go of her family, she will always be there, demanding, getting rude when she doesn't get what she wants. The endless phone calls are only likely to increase. One day she will no longer be able to drive or do housework or gardening. What will happen then I have no idea. She has one child still living with her but how much they will step up is anyone's guess, they are rarely home when ever I am there. There is only one way my wheel in this life with her will end and that is death
but I knew this and the heaviest burdens are not mine. I watch from the sidelines. Everyone scurrying around trying not to upset her or let her completely into their lives without accepting that she is ill and that these are not the best tactics. I think honesty and firmness and very clear conversations work best. Hints and half promises don't work, oh I might call you later as an appeasing effort to escape does not work it only causes upset when no phone call comes. But this is easier for me than for others.
I think what was so hard was that chain between us all being yanked so veyr hard coupled with the realisation that we are bound together and have been bound and will be bound. A glimpse of the scale of the spiders web....
It makes me wonder if this will rumble through in to another life or more. None of it feels resolved and to be honest I can't see it all being resolved in this life. Maybe even some parts of it have gotten worse? Who knows... And I and a few others are bound into this situation as bit part actors, not fully a part of whatever is still wrong at the root but there anyway through bonds of love and family. And I am the least involved of all of us. I was not born into either of the two families, I was drawn here in the hunt for my soulmate and unfortunately this is what he comes with.
Not that I don't think I was there in that long ago life, i am sure I was. The feelings and relationships between myself and the other players are too definate to not speak of past issues. Maybe we and the other bit part actors are just here in love to support those we love in this life and try and help them untie those knots a little more.
S will get older, he will sort himself out, or not, but he will move further and further into his own life, taking control as he goes. As this happens, the need to talk to the other side of his family will grow less and less and her ability to affect my life will just get smaller and smaller and smaller.
M-i-L is another story though but she is over 70 now. i think as people get older they retreat further into the core of themselves and show more of what is at the heart. A person maybe truly kind and content and this will shine through more and more.... Unhappiness, discontent and fear... Anything unresolved becomes bigger too. I can already see how I might go - more forgetful and as I am tired more and more of the time, would be mroe and more grumpy, more of the time...
but M-i-L is different to me. I can't imagine she will ever be able to let go of her family, she will always be there, demanding, getting rude when she doesn't get what she wants. The endless phone calls are only likely to increase. One day she will no longer be able to drive or do housework or gardening. What will happen then I have no idea. She has one child still living with her but how much they will step up is anyone's guess, they are rarely home when ever I am there. There is only one way my wheel in this life with her will end and that is death
but I knew this and the heaviest burdens are not mine. I watch from the sidelines. Everyone scurrying around trying not to upset her or let her completely into their lives without accepting that she is ill and that these are not the best tactics. I think honesty and firmness and very clear conversations work best. Hints and half promises don't work, oh I might call you later as an appeasing effort to escape does not work it only causes upset when no phone call comes. But this is easier for me than for others.
I think what was so hard was that chain between us all being yanked so veyr hard coupled with the realisation that we are bound together and have been bound and will be bound. A glimpse of the scale of the spiders web....
Saturday, 12 May 2012
Impotent
This moon is definately a hard one for me. For whatever reason, life seens me things when it comes to the Moon of Omnipotence. The thought of it being about power and ability to change things to how you like I have to smile, in that slightly bitter and cynical way. For me, this Moon is the Moon of Impotence.
Sometimes no matter how things may impact you, they are about other people, their decisions, their relationships, their lives. It doesn't matter if they are wrong, you just have to deal and get on with it. And this Moon has brought me back to being Impotent.
And it all stirs around S.
I created a calendar on Excel, so I can see what moon was where, when in my life, both the yearly and moonthly moons and looking at that and thinking about S shows a thing or two very clearly about my relationship with him, and his father.
I met both of them in my year of the Blue Moon. The first couple of years were tough. F's Ex was very hard on us both, emotionally, mentally and monetarily. M-i-L was hard to cope with too and all these situations that are now such an integral part of my life walked in, firmly attached to F in my year of the Blue Moon.
But for F, we met at the end of his Year of Value. His Year of Omnipotence and the Year of Territoriality after that were all about dealing whit the s***storm his deciding to have another relationship unleashed. Maybe the truth about Omnipotence is getting to make a decision and then living with the consequences!
Which makes me look at my calendar some more and add in F and S's years to compare with my own. And this is interesting. Our years don't meet up completely, obvoisuly, because our birthdays are at different times. But it makes me think our wheels are connected, like there are hints of situations and reactions and our positions within it all.....
So this Wheel of the three of us began in my Year of the Blue Moon, F in Omnipotence and S in Inter-relations. S adjusted well to gaining me but I think it was hard on him to lose some of the one to one with his Dad. And then I think of the wider situation and add the Ex, M-i-l and F-i-L and then I start to get sad....
It all starts to tie in, this web of people. I doubt any of the other people in this web feel Omnipotent either. In fact I know they don't. And given how our Wheels are all linked together you can almost see future situations in it too, as the wheel we are on keep on turning, together. You can see how one situation came out of one previously and they all follow on.
S is not happy right now and is in a bit of a mess, very much in Drama. F is just moving into Welcome, I guess his new wheel started around about the time we decided we would definately get married and we married inhis year of the Blue Moon. I guess in this new cycle his relationships are more closely bound to me, a symbolic step away maybe but also a symbolic step of binding me into the wheels of his family further. I am in Breaking Masks, digging away at things and looking, but so is M-i-L but I think she is manifesting the negative side of this moon - Posession. And the Ex is in Territoriality for which the flip side is Intrusive.
I have no idea if this is making any sense or how clear it is to other people what I am trying to say.....
From here S is going to move into Value / Protection, F into Affirmation (Submission), me into Reason and the M-i-L into Unreason and the Ex into inter-relations or Isolation. And while I see things getting better for S maybe in that web, I see him having a hard time with M-i-L and his Mum.
Then at 18 he moves in to Omnipotence and I get the feeling of him making a huge decision, maybe joining the forces, leaving Cornwall or moving out of home.... F moves into Value, M-i-L and I move into Humility and I can imagine in M-i-L's case there could be some broken-ness in that and the Ex moves into Surrender (Resistance) and I can see her fighting and fighting the changes S makes.
Then at 19 S moves on to Territoriality as he starts to really stake out who and what he is and his life. F moves into Omnipotence (ouch), M-i-L and I move into Metamorphosis and she either pulls herself together at losing the S of childhood in preparation for her next cycle or she doesn't..... The Ex moves into Breaking Masks as she starts to get to grips, hopefully with all that has occurred.
Then at 20 S moves into Inter-relations and maybe starts to build up his relations with everyone on his own terms, rebuilding walls? F moves into Territoriality. I and the M-i-L move into our Blue Moon years and hopefully, in this next cycle our wheels will be tied a little less closely and who knows what the focus will be? The Ex moves into Reason.
But maybe this makes no sense to anyone else - but if one thing is clear, this cycle is all about S. He is the poor fly caught in the centre of this web, his very existence tying us all together and his decisions tugging us all around just as the decisions each one of us makes tugs everyone else. And he can't take it any more.
He is cracking.
The question is, how to get everyone to pull together to give him what he needs because at the moment everyone seems to be just pulling even harder... And the truth is we are all caught in this web.
Sometimes no matter how things may impact you, they are about other people, their decisions, their relationships, their lives. It doesn't matter if they are wrong, you just have to deal and get on with it. And this Moon has brought me back to being Impotent.
And it all stirs around S.
I created a calendar on Excel, so I can see what moon was where, when in my life, both the yearly and moonthly moons and looking at that and thinking about S shows a thing or two very clearly about my relationship with him, and his father.
I met both of them in my year of the Blue Moon. The first couple of years were tough. F's Ex was very hard on us both, emotionally, mentally and monetarily. M-i-L was hard to cope with too and all these situations that are now such an integral part of my life walked in, firmly attached to F in my year of the Blue Moon.
But for F, we met at the end of his Year of Value. His Year of Omnipotence and the Year of Territoriality after that were all about dealing whit the s***storm his deciding to have another relationship unleashed. Maybe the truth about Omnipotence is getting to make a decision and then living with the consequences!
Which makes me look at my calendar some more and add in F and S's years to compare with my own. And this is interesting. Our years don't meet up completely, obvoisuly, because our birthdays are at different times. But it makes me think our wheels are connected, like there are hints of situations and reactions and our positions within it all.....
So this Wheel of the three of us began in my Year of the Blue Moon, F in Omnipotence and S in Inter-relations. S adjusted well to gaining me but I think it was hard on him to lose some of the one to one with his Dad. And then I think of the wider situation and add the Ex, M-i-l and F-i-L and then I start to get sad....
It all starts to tie in, this web of people. I doubt any of the other people in this web feel Omnipotent either. In fact I know they don't. And given how our Wheels are all linked together you can almost see future situations in it too, as the wheel we are on keep on turning, together. You can see how one situation came out of one previously and they all follow on.
S is not happy right now and is in a bit of a mess, very much in Drama. F is just moving into Welcome, I guess his new wheel started around about the time we decided we would definately get married and we married inhis year of the Blue Moon. I guess in this new cycle his relationships are more closely bound to me, a symbolic step away maybe but also a symbolic step of binding me into the wheels of his family further. I am in Breaking Masks, digging away at things and looking, but so is M-i-L but I think she is manifesting the negative side of this moon - Posession. And the Ex is in Territoriality for which the flip side is Intrusive.
I have no idea if this is making any sense or how clear it is to other people what I am trying to say.....
From here S is going to move into Value / Protection, F into Affirmation (Submission), me into Reason and the M-i-L into Unreason and the Ex into inter-relations or Isolation. And while I see things getting better for S maybe in that web, I see him having a hard time with M-i-L and his Mum.
Then at 18 he moves in to Omnipotence and I get the feeling of him making a huge decision, maybe joining the forces, leaving Cornwall or moving out of home.... F moves into Value, M-i-L and I move into Humility and I can imagine in M-i-L's case there could be some broken-ness in that and the Ex moves into Surrender (Resistance) and I can see her fighting and fighting the changes S makes.
Then at 19 S moves on to Territoriality as he starts to really stake out who and what he is and his life. F moves into Omnipotence (ouch), M-i-L and I move into Metamorphosis and she either pulls herself together at losing the S of childhood in preparation for her next cycle or she doesn't..... The Ex moves into Breaking Masks as she starts to get to grips, hopefully with all that has occurred.
Then at 20 S moves into Inter-relations and maybe starts to build up his relations with everyone on his own terms, rebuilding walls? F moves into Territoriality. I and the M-i-L move into our Blue Moon years and hopefully, in this next cycle our wheels will be tied a little less closely and who knows what the focus will be? The Ex moves into Reason.
But maybe this makes no sense to anyone else - but if one thing is clear, this cycle is all about S. He is the poor fly caught in the centre of this web, his very existence tying us all together and his decisions tugging us all around just as the decisions each one of us makes tugs everyone else. And he can't take it any more.
He is cracking.
The question is, how to get everyone to pull together to give him what he needs because at the moment everyone seems to be just pulling even harder... And the truth is we are all caught in this web.
Monday, 7 May 2012
Panagia Tsambika
Once upon a time there was a Shepherd and he was out with his flock by night and he saw a light, far above, on the mountain. He was scared. The next night, the light was there again, so on the third he went up the mountain with some villagers to see what they could find. They feared wrong doers.
On the mountain they were shocked to find a religious icon of Mother Mary, Kyra with a candle next to it. They talked of their find and no one was missing an icon, but eventually word reached Cyprus and there was an icon missing there. Priests came and confirmed the icon was theirs and returned it to it's home. Except the icon reappeared on top of the mountain on Rhodes.
This time when they took it back, they secretly used soot to mark the back. It reappeared on Rhodes again and there it has stayed ever since. A monastery was founded, there on that peak to Kyra. Legend has it that the couple who found it were infertile and following the find had children.
This particular monastery is famed for helping women to conceive. Those that do, following a visit to the moastery, name their child either Tsambika or Tsambiko, and these are common names on the island. She is considered a protector of the Island and Tsamba means Spark.
The site may have originally been the location of an altar to Artemis. The monastery was rebuilt in 1770 but it is not known when it was first built. There is now a larger monastery down by the road which is still working. The original 11th Century icon is kept in the main monastery but a copy is kept in the tiny mountain top monastery.
This is a good site with pictures and videos of the area.
So, lying on the beach at our hotel we could see the monastery, just about, perched on the very top, with obvious precipitous drops to most sides. We could also just about make out the taverna situated at the top of the road by the car park.
The view from Cape Vagia to Tsambika. The monastery is situated on the highest peak, middle left in this photo. The path wended it's way up the gentler slop to the right, the road went as far as the shoulder beneath the peak to the right.
I am large and unfit and although I was depserate to go up, I was nervous too, particularly in the heat. Just before we left I saw some Ants and they reminded me that you can achieve huge, impossible seeming tasks, if you take it slow and make one baby step at a time.
The road is very steep and full of hair pin bends and our little hire car only just made it to the car park. From here the path slopes upwards and very soon the steps begin. 307 of them. They were not hard steps but there was often sloping ground between them as well. The path wound it's way up the side of the mountain, through beautiful pine woodland through which you gained tantalising tasters of the view to come.
Part way up there was a really good place to admire the view with a bench and rocks had been left by the path. We each took a rock and added it to the wall. I of course made use of every bench and a good many rocks on my way up. I probably stopped about every ten steps!
But by going slowly and peacefully we really appreciated the mountain. It felt very special. So peaceful and beautiful. It has to be one of the most amazing places I have ever visited. The atmosphere was so incredible.
We reached the top and a tiny walled garden is wrapped around the monastery with drops on all sides but where the path came up. There is a cross and steps up to the gate into the courtyard which is decorated with beautiful pebble mosaics. One of these is a cup with two Doves sat on it. Here I lit a candle before moving through into each of the three tiny rooms of the monastery. No photography is allowed within the monastery itself.
The view was incredible with views both ways along the coast as well as inland. But as amazing as this place is, i can't describe really how it made me feel or what it means to me. As we drove back to our hotel I saw two white Doves fly above an Olive Orchard.
p.s. I vow to get my own camera - F has a habit of taking arty shots or photos with me in them. I am beginning to realise that two people out for the day, each with a camera, would come back with very different photos.... *laugh*
On the mountain they were shocked to find a religious icon of Mother Mary, Kyra with a candle next to it. They talked of their find and no one was missing an icon, but eventually word reached Cyprus and there was an icon missing there. Priests came and confirmed the icon was theirs and returned it to it's home. Except the icon reappeared on top of the mountain on Rhodes.
This time when they took it back, they secretly used soot to mark the back. It reappeared on Rhodes again and there it has stayed ever since. A monastery was founded, there on that peak to Kyra. Legend has it that the couple who found it were infertile and following the find had children.
This particular monastery is famed for helping women to conceive. Those that do, following a visit to the moastery, name their child either Tsambika or Tsambiko, and these are common names on the island. She is considered a protector of the Island and Tsamba means Spark.
The site may have originally been the location of an altar to Artemis. The monastery was rebuilt in 1770 but it is not known when it was first built. There is now a larger monastery down by the road which is still working. The original 11th Century icon is kept in the main monastery but a copy is kept in the tiny mountain top monastery.
This is a good site with pictures and videos of the area.
So, lying on the beach at our hotel we could see the monastery, just about, perched on the very top, with obvious precipitous drops to most sides. We could also just about make out the taverna situated at the top of the road by the car park.
I am large and unfit and although I was depserate to go up, I was nervous too, particularly in the heat. Just before we left I saw some Ants and they reminded me that you can achieve huge, impossible seeming tasks, if you take it slow and make one baby step at a time.
The road is very steep and full of hair pin bends and our little hire car only just made it to the car park. From here the path slopes upwards and very soon the steps begin. 307 of them. They were not hard steps but there was often sloping ground between them as well. The path wound it's way up the side of the mountain, through beautiful pine woodland through which you gained tantalising tasters of the view to come.
The path wends it's way through pretty pine woods, snaking up the mountain.
Part way up there was a really good place to admire the view with a bench and rocks had been left by the path. We each took a rock and added it to the wall. I of course made use of every bench and a good many rocks on my way up. I probably stopped about every ten steps!
Trees grow out of rocks
But by going slowly and peacefully we really appreciated the mountain. It felt very special. So peaceful and beautiful. It has to be one of the most amazing places I have ever visited. The atmosphere was so incredible.
We reached the top and a tiny walled garden is wrapped around the monastery with drops on all sides but where the path came up. There is a cross and steps up to the gate into the courtyard which is decorated with beautiful pebble mosaics. One of these is a cup with two Doves sat on it. Here I lit a candle before moving through into each of the three tiny rooms of the monastery. No photography is allowed within the monastery itself.
The last few steps up to the Monastery.
The view was incredible with views both ways along the coast as well as inland. But as amazing as this place is, i can't describe really how it made me feel or what it means to me. As we drove back to our hotel I saw two white Doves fly above an Olive Orchard.
The Monastery from behind
p.s. I vow to get my own camera - F has a habit of taking arty shots or photos with me in them. I am beginning to realise that two people out for the day, each with a camera, would come back with very different photos.... *laugh*
Dreamboards
Moon of Welcome
Lisa asked me to post my dreamboards in the FB group. I figured as I was actually taking pictures of them, I should post them here too. Only the Moon of Welcome above has been posted before...
Moon of Affirmation
Moon of Drama
Moon of Value
Moon of Omnipotence
Sunday, 6 May 2012
Moon of Value / Protection Review
Normally I review the past Moon before I introduce the new one, but this time, I am very glad I did it the other way around, because this Moon really relates to some of the issues I have with the Moon of Omnipotence. I also can see that this used to be a Broken Moon for me, due to events beyond my control.
When I was 4 I went to a playschool in a different catchement to the school I would later go to. The children of my age at playschool left to start school earlier than I did so I was the only child of my age at the play school for some time. People and friendships and community are things I Value and the results of this unfortunate happening echoed down through later Moons in the form of loneliness and a lack of value for myself.
While my Moon of Value was only mildly broken and soon mended really, it caused an even bigger break in the following Moon, the Moon of Omnipotence and it is in that Moon that the biggest, baddest events of my life have taken place. But it all comes back to the Moon of Value.
What I said in my Moon of Value introduction holds true - I got it very right for this Moon at the beginning. It has been all about relationships, both my own and the web of relationships around me. It has been about how I connect to the world and enjoy being open to it and new things and like to see the positive in events around me, how I can laugh at things others might cry over. The Wife mentioned in the last couple of posts has been key I think to taking the healing of my Moon of Omnipotence back to it's root in the Moon of Value. Of course, when my Moon of Omnipotence broke, it formed it's own cracks too, not just the big one started in the Moon of Value. Not sure yet, if I have healed these other cracks yet.
So this Moon has been lovely. I have enjoyed it and seen much new and beautiful. I have enjoyed the world around me and I have been open to new people and experiences.
I don't need to say much about my dreamboard I think and as to the rest of it... I am going to take a short break now to find a story and a picture... I have spent no time on these at all this month....
I like this picture because all the drops of dew on the web look like Moons. We all have our own Ego but we are all connected together on the web of life..... I also like the little reflections on the dew drops - like little landscape pictures, representing our deeper connection to the Earth....
One day the Spider-in-the-Moon realised she was pregnant. This was a moment of joy followed by despair, for she was a spider in the sky and her web flew around her, her offspring would need to go elsewhere to prosper, she had to send them away for their own benefit. She was not convinced her offspring would like her decision and felt clueless as to who would resent it's impact more. She sorrowed.
She cast her eyes around her as to where to send her young as she carefully wrapped them up in silk and attached a parachute. She noticed that every star and every planet and every moon had a web around it already as the sister and brother spiders spun their webs and looked after all that lived within. She nodded her head in approval for all was exactly as it should be there.
And then she looked down at the Earth below her and she recoiled in dismay. Her sister beneath was having a great deal of difficulty and things were certainly going awry. Millions of little creatures were living on the Earth but they had grown out of touch with ground beneath their feet and they could no longer feel the gentle tugs of her sisters web that would keep them living in connection with all that was. It was not a pretty sight, her sisters web all tangled and torn, depsite her best efforts.
She called gently to her sister 'Oh Sister dear, I sorrow for your struggles. I have my plight and you have yours, may I send my Joy to help you and solve both of our difficulties?'
Her sister had no time to answer but merely waggled a leg in a way that could have been a 'go away, can't you see I am busy!' or a 'go ahead, you sure can not make things worse!' Spider Moon decided not to wait and make sure, she didn't know how but she knew her children could help, so she gathered them up and gently blew them towards the Earth.
They descended on the Earth like a hurricane of Dandelion seeds. The creatures were oblivious to the Spiders waiting to hatch all around them. She noticed her sister began to make sure that the eggs were distributed everywhere there was a creature and before long, they began to hatch.
Spider Moon watched in wonder as each tiny spider attached itself to a creature and began to weave a web around it, slowly anchoring them back into the world web, calming their urgent despairing destruction with the feel of silk and a deep peace as they ceased to struggle and felt at home in the great sleep of the Dreaming World once again.
Her sister seemed calmer and her movements slowed as her web began to be repaired. Her efforts returned to spinning new web and taking the Earth forward rather than dealing with mindless damage to her work of art. And the creatures dreamed safe and secure as the growing spiders made bigger and bigger and increasingly more beautiful webs around them.
Spider Moon carried on spinning.
I think that is more than enough writing and thinking for one day.... I have lots more to say about Rhodes and a gazillion photos to share....
When I was 4 I went to a playschool in a different catchement to the school I would later go to. The children of my age at playschool left to start school earlier than I did so I was the only child of my age at the play school for some time. People and friendships and community are things I Value and the results of this unfortunate happening echoed down through later Moons in the form of loneliness and a lack of value for myself.
While my Moon of Value was only mildly broken and soon mended really, it caused an even bigger break in the following Moon, the Moon of Omnipotence and it is in that Moon that the biggest, baddest events of my life have taken place. But it all comes back to the Moon of Value.
What I said in my Moon of Value introduction holds true - I got it very right for this Moon at the beginning. It has been all about relationships, both my own and the web of relationships around me. It has been about how I connect to the world and enjoy being open to it and new things and like to see the positive in events around me, how I can laugh at things others might cry over. The Wife mentioned in the last couple of posts has been key I think to taking the healing of my Moon of Omnipotence back to it's root in the Moon of Value. Of course, when my Moon of Omnipotence broke, it formed it's own cracks too, not just the big one started in the Moon of Value. Not sure yet, if I have healed these other cracks yet.
So this Moon has been lovely. I have enjoyed it and seen much new and beautiful. I have enjoyed the world around me and I have been open to new people and experiences.
I don't need to say much about my dreamboard I think and as to the rest of it... I am going to take a short break now to find a story and a picture... I have spent no time on these at all this month....
One day the Spider-in-the-Moon realised she was pregnant. This was a moment of joy followed by despair, for she was a spider in the sky and her web flew around her, her offspring would need to go elsewhere to prosper, she had to send them away for their own benefit. She was not convinced her offspring would like her decision and felt clueless as to who would resent it's impact more. She sorrowed.
She cast her eyes around her as to where to send her young as she carefully wrapped them up in silk and attached a parachute. She noticed that every star and every planet and every moon had a web around it already as the sister and brother spiders spun their webs and looked after all that lived within. She nodded her head in approval for all was exactly as it should be there.
And then she looked down at the Earth below her and she recoiled in dismay. Her sister beneath was having a great deal of difficulty and things were certainly going awry. Millions of little creatures were living on the Earth but they had grown out of touch with ground beneath their feet and they could no longer feel the gentle tugs of her sisters web that would keep them living in connection with all that was. It was not a pretty sight, her sisters web all tangled and torn, depsite her best efforts.
She called gently to her sister 'Oh Sister dear, I sorrow for your struggles. I have my plight and you have yours, may I send my Joy to help you and solve both of our difficulties?'
Her sister had no time to answer but merely waggled a leg in a way that could have been a 'go away, can't you see I am busy!' or a 'go ahead, you sure can not make things worse!' Spider Moon decided not to wait and make sure, she didn't know how but she knew her children could help, so she gathered them up and gently blew them towards the Earth.
They descended on the Earth like a hurricane of Dandelion seeds. The creatures were oblivious to the Spiders waiting to hatch all around them. She noticed her sister began to make sure that the eggs were distributed everywhere there was a creature and before long, they began to hatch.
Spider Moon watched in wonder as each tiny spider attached itself to a creature and began to weave a web around it, slowly anchoring them back into the world web, calming their urgent despairing destruction with the feel of silk and a deep peace as they ceased to struggle and felt at home in the great sleep of the Dreaming World once again.
Her sister seemed calmer and her movements slowed as her web began to be repaired. Her efforts returned to spinning new web and taking the Earth forward rather than dealing with mindless damage to her work of art. And the creatures dreamed safe and secure as the growing spiders made bigger and bigger and increasingly more beautiful webs around them.
Spider Moon carried on spinning.
I think that is more than enough writing and thinking for one day.... I have lots more to say about Rhodes and a gazillion photos to share....
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